Got my workout at work!

All my classes today learned a little bit of:

Mambo
Cha Cha
Merengue

And we had fun doing it!

Plus! Now my workout for the day is already done! I actually had the whole class sweating and saying next time they were bringing water bottles!

Thoughts of a tired mom and teacher…

Saturdays are traditionally blog till you drop days for me! What can I say? blogging is my passion, hobby and addiction! So even on days when I may not know exactly what to write about, I will be here blabbering. This is the case today. I’m feeling like my life is probably pretty boring for others to read but blogs are for personal enjoyment and heck! I like to write and talk to myself about my life. Sometimes I’m my own best listener and it’s not until the words come typed or written from mind to computer screen or paper, that I realize what is going on inside of Gwen.

Today I’m thinking about dance, blogs, jobs and kids.

Yesterday on my other blog that I’ve had for almost 3 years I believe, I posted one video of my daughter’s dress rehearsal last night. There is this one elderly blogger that I know considers myself his friend but he usually has something negative to say when he stops by and also seems to get angry at me when I talk about my depression or negativity in any way. I try not to give it a second thought and dismiss it as “old people syndrome”. No offense, but a lot of elderly people are very chronically cranky and like to spread the misery. I learned this through my many years of retail, waitressing and just through life in general. But since I’m the type of gal who lets EVERYTHING get to her, it does bother me. Oh well! Anyways, yesterday he made a negative comment about my 11 year old daughter’s ballet clip, that they weren’t graceful! I mean come on, isn’t this a little like duhhhh!!! Ya don’t put down peoples’ kids. I mean I wasn’t signing her up for the NYC ballet. I was just showing a clip of her Christmas’ play dress rehearsal!

Next topic, I’m still thinking about the whole job/career question. Most of my blog friends’ responses have been the standard “You’re a good teacher. Give yourself more credit. Think of all the lives you touch.” To be honest with you, these responses make me feel worse and I know that is not your intention at all. I’m not really sure why this reaction either. Maybe it’s because I’m looking for the permission to give up on myself as being an effective teacher. Maybe it’s because I think you all can’t really possibly know that I’m a good teacher from my blogs. I do consider myself a good blogger LOLOL but not a good teacher. I mean I have a heart of gold, would give the shirt off my back to one of my students  and think of many of them like I would my own children- but that’s not an effective teacher. That’s a 1% piece of a big 100% puzzle.

Our friend Stu had lots of ideas similar to ones I’ve had in the past that I’m still not sure are real possible but I thank her for the thought she put into it and it is those ideas that have encouraged me to keep thinking, dreaming, exploring the possibilities of a life in which Gwen would be happier.

More thoughts- I want to be a bum all day since we have the recital tonight from about 5:45 to 9:30 door to door of our house when I can cuddle up with my dogs again and spend weekends the way they were meant to be enjoyed! But I look above me and see dirty ceiling fans, I look to the corner and see cobwebs, straight ahead their is dust and I know that this is only one room of our 9 room home! Yuck!

I guess that last paragraph sucked all my writing inspiration out of me because I’m empty for now. I’ll be back though. Threat or promise, however you look at it! :0)

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TGIF

Thank God tonight is over!! Whew!!

I was ultra prepared for dress rehearsal after school.  I went to three different stores during my school break just to get the right size pink tights (the final piece for costumes needed). I had a plan. Riss packed all her costume and shoes. I packed a snack, coloring books and crayons for Kev and figured we would leave at 3:30 when he got off the bus and grab an early dinner on the way since I hadn’t had lunch and the kids are always hungry after school.

3:25 and the phone rings. It’s Kev’s teacher and we had a long talk that lasted until Kev got off the bus. But since he had a substitute bus driver, it was 3:45 and we didn’t have time to get eats! Also I had no gas but we didn’t have time to stop. We were 5 mins. late as it was.

Well we couldn’t really color because it was dark but he was rather patient…at least for the first couple of hours. Then he was hungry and bored and he didn’t like the music. I was starving too and by 6:30 when we left the church where the recital is held, I was just as grumpy as Kev.

So a trip to the gas station (I’ll have to go again tomorrow cuz I only had $10 to spare on me) and through a drive thru and home I came. Then Pauly did something absolutely unbelievable! He’s my 1 yr. old pug for those of you who don’t know my fur babies. I was sitting here on my bed with my laptop, about to write a blog and check emails and he jumps up. Very nomal. Then I see him lift his leg and pee all over Kev’s backpack that was on my bed and my bed of course!!! WTF??? Are you kidding me?? Did he really just do that???

So had to change the covers and throw a load in the wash and Gwen is Grumpy! Thank God it’s Friday night. Tomorrow night will be just the same as it is dance recital night, but I have the rest of the night and all day tomorrow to lounge in my jammies. It’s sooo darn cold out!

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