Quotes meant to inspire…

Peter Sinclair: Inspirational “Overcoming Adversity” Quotes
Depression loses its power when fresh vision pierces the darkness.

 Myla Kabat-Zinn: Inspirational “Overcoming Adversity” Quotes
Each difficult moment has the potential to open my eyes and open my heart.

Slept 2 hours today. It’s now 10:30 and I’m going to bed. Wish me sleep!

After midnight

I tried to go to bed at 10:30. It’s not midnight and I’m still wide awake. I could only listen to my own thoughts racing for so long before I had to get up and do something. Since my mind is working overtime on school, I thought I would look over and even type my lesson for the rest of the week so that I would feel more prepared and perhaps be able to get 5 hours asleep here…

I would take a sick day as I certainly have a lot of medical things going on that I could address but it would be a very bad day to for 2 reasons. Tomorrow night is Marissa’s band concert and it’s only been 2 weeks since I took the day off when Marissa was sick. I seem to be the only one at school who is ever sick or needs to take so much time off (4 days since September) and yes a couple of them have young kids like I do.

I can’t take an anxiety med because I’ve been out for over a month and since I was feeling so good, I didn’t bother calling for a refill! I’ve still got that fluid in my ear as well. Not to mention that there has been something wrong and painful with my left thumb for the past couple of weeks. And then there is the fact that I seem to be skipping cycles every other month and when they do come, I’ve been getting cysts that finally go away after my cycle. So see, I do have plenty of reasons I could take a sick day but I’d feel even more guilty probably if I took the day off.

Grrrrrr!!! Being a grown up sucks.

Sleep disturbance

OK…I need to start with the fact that last night I took a prescribed sleeping pill because I was anticipating having trouble sleeping. For one because my husband was working late and two because I’ve been having trouble sleeping.

Well when I woke up, I had some vague memories and I assumed they were a dream. One thing that I remembered was meeting someone at 11 and so when I came home on break from school at 11 and my Sis walked in, I had a feeling maybe it wasn’t a dream. LOL

So I said to her “Did I talk to you last night?” She laughed “Yea, you don’t remember talking to me.”

I admitted that I didn’t remember but that I had some vague memories and I was kind of hoping they were just a dream because I remembered saying some wacky things! I told her I had taken the sleeping pill. I actually had a 40 minute conversation with her that I barely recall!

I said to her “What time did you call me?” She laughed again “I didn’t! You called me at 10:30 and I was worried that you called me so late”

I also apparently had a peanut butter sandwich and left the bread all open and everything! Just what I need is to start eating in my sleep. I have noticed myself waking up in the middle of the night and grabbing snacks lately which is also weird. I’m obviously having some sort of sleep disturbance and meds won’t help if I’m doing this sort of thing.

Gonna have to do some research!